It has been a MINUTE… well actually it’s been three months, but here I am! I have quite the update to do!
So the last time I was on here I believe I was looking for somewhere new to live. I am happy to report that I have moved (I know, for like the fourth time since moving to Ottawa)! I now live in this cute area of Ottawa, closer to my school and work, and I have two roommates. They’re old friends of mine from my McDonald days. I’m finally all settled in and although my last apartment gave me total heart eyes, this place has quickly become a cozy little home.
School I have not skipped a beat on school since returning to Carleton this past winter. In hopes of completing my General Bachelor of Art’s as soon as possible, I’ve been taking three summer courses throughout the duration of the summer. Summer classes are exhilarated so it’s been a lot of work, but it means I’ll be finished a semester sooner, so yay! (more…)
Not much has changed since my last post, except that I cut even more of my hair off and dyed it for the first time in years! I love the change, although it’s rather subtle. I got “balayage” done, so it should grow out pretty nicely, so I may hold back on cutting it again for a while. We’ll see, but for the mean time I’m loving it!
In other exciting news, Ryan has finally let me get a cat! I’ve been looking on petfinder.com to find a kitty that fits with me (us) but also is coming from a shelter. I always wanted a pure bred cat (ya I’m a bit of a snob lol) but the more I read into breeding and the possible conditions that the cats are kept in, it just made me too sad and I decided I’d rather get a cat from a shelter that needs a home more desperately. So wish me luck on hopefully finding “the one” soon!
On less of a happy note, I’m still at McDonald’s. I swear once I leave there my life will just instantly feel more fulfilling. It’s a lot to bet on and I’m not getting my hopes up, but trudging my way to McDonald’s every day at five thirty in the morning has some lasting effects on one’s mood haha. I can’t express how much I hate hate HATE fast food! Uniforms and the smell of grease are beginning to be the bane of my existence. This job is really the only thing holding me back from having my shit together (kind of). So here’s to hoping I can find something else in the near future.
Not much else is new besides that, Ryan has a possible new job lined up for March, in Saskatchewan though, so that’s pretty unfortunate. It’s not 100% yet though, so I’m not getting too upset about it just yet. That’s part of the reason I’ve been more seriously looking for a cat though because I don’t want to be all alone in this apartment.
Well that’s all for now. Sorry my life isn’t more exciting haha.
Today has been a very lazy Sunday for me. Last night we celebrated my boyfriend’s birthday at our apartment and I barely stayed awake for it (to be honest I did fall asleep for a bit, perks of partying at your own home) so I told myself that today was going to be a day to catch up on some rest and relaxation. I left myself sleep in, and am still letting my boyfriend sleep in despite it being almost 4pm! I don’t know how he does it. I think it’s because he barely sleeps throughout the week and tries to make up for it all in one day haha.
Anyways! I recently watched the movie Love, Rosie which if you’re into chick flicks and balling your eyes out like me, then you should definitely watch it. It’s (loosely) based off the novel Where Rainbows End by Cecelia Ahem. I loved the movie so much I rushed out to buy the book. It look a little getting used to as the whole novel is written in the form of letters, e-mails and text messages between the characters but in no time I was hooked. Today I’ve read three hundred pages and counting, I just can’t seem to put it down! Even as I’m writing this I’ve looked over at the book about five times and considered stopping writing and picking back up my book instead. Something about publishing a blog post makes me feel like I did something with my day, even though they take little thought and accomplish nothing haha.
So the most I did with my day so far was water my plants, which by the way are turning into quite the collection! I actually took some photos of them as they’re currently my little leafy babies and my most prized possessions. I wanted to do a cheesy little “page” about all my plants, but I would need to set up a proper photoshoot with all them first so maybe within time. I’d also include how I take care of them, etc, as I’m slowly learning with the more plants I add to my collection.
Well I better get going, I just wanted to give a little update and tell everyone to have a wonderful Sunday and to not do anything too productive today. That’s not what the day is for haha!
I feel the need to apologize for how bland and depressing my posts have been lately, and this post isn’t going to be an exception to that. Life is sad so my posts are sad, I’m sorry. But in all honesty, my life is textbook amazing, I have a belly full of food, I have a roof over my head and my family is all safely tucked in their beds. I try to remind myself of these things when I’m feeling down on myself and thinking about how crummy everything has been lately. But I think that sadness is relative and it doesn’t matter how many people have it worse and no matter how mundane your own problems may seem, it doesn’t make them seize to exist.
I’m lucky enough to have left my last job on a really good note and I’ve decided it’s time to suck it up and go back to work. I haven’t tried nearly as hard as I’d like to say I have on finding a new job in my field, but with September approaching and looking for a new apartment, I need to be employed even if it’s at McDonald’s. I will continue my search for a job that is related to my field of study, but in the mean time I need to make money. I can’t tell you how big of a defeat this has felt like. I loved working there, and some times I honestly missed it and the people I worked with, but at the end of the day I’m still an almost-20-year-old who has paid money and worked hard to gain a certificate that will just hang on my wall until further notice. My heart sinks thinking about how I wasn’t good enough for any of the positions I applied for and it makes me wonder if I ever will be.
I think I’m the type of person that tries really hard to stay optimistic and to hope for the best but eventually I just can’t do it anymore and tears just start flowing through the cracks. Lately I’ve been trying really hard to find an apartment for Ryan and myself for this September. After multiple viewings and countless hours searching online I finally found the perfect apartment. It was in a beautiful building, in a nice neighbourhood, near my friends, and under our budget! I went for a viewing and honestly fell in love. I could just picture all our things in the drawers and our photos on the walls. I went in the next day to hand in our application and they said it would take 1-2 days to process and then they’d let us know if we’d been accepted or not. The long weekend unfortunately hit and it’s now been 5 days since I’ve heard back. I even sent an e-mail in regards to the status of our application and got no reply. It sounds crazy, but thinking about this apartment has kept me up at night. I’ve had countless dreams of receiving an e-mail that said we got accepted/declined for the apartment. At this point I wouldn’t even care if we did get declined, I’d just like to be given the peace of mind. It’s silly things like this that I have tried so hard to stay positive about, just blaming the long weekend for people not being in the office and for processes taking longer, but eventually you start to lose hope and I just break down crying and take a nap (my answer for everything).
I just thought that I’d finish school, go on my trip and then come back and and find a job within the next month. Instead I’m going back to McDonalds, I currently don’t have anywhere to live in less than a month and I’ve gotten sick of seeing my own face in the mirror. I hope that going back to work (even if it’s in fast food) will give me a bit of purpose back and motivate me to keep making little changes.
Sorry for being such a dark cloud. I honestly relate more and more to Eeyore everyday.
I’m sorry that I’ve been so absent lately but my life has been less than exciting. I’ve been completely unmotivated to do anything lately. My progress in landing a job has gone as far as updating my resume and bookmarking a few possible positions to apply to on my computer. I have been updating my kijiji account (website where you sell stuff) and been making enough off of my sales to keep surviving. I was telling my mum that I was considering a career as a professional kijiji sales woman. I don’t think she was too big of a supporter of that idea.
Other than that my life has been excruciatingly uneventful. I did go to yoga on Parliament Hill for the first time the other day, which if you’re ever in Ottawa on a Wednesday afternoon you should definitely check out, even if it’s just to take a peek at what’s going on. (More info here: http://www.ottawatourism.ca/ottawa-insider/yoga-on-parliament-hill/)
Oh! I did purchase Passenger tickets for this September in Montreal! My birthday lands on a Saturday this year and the concert happens to be just a few days after, so it’s like a late birthday celebration. I usually have awful luck with birthdays (plans falling through, things not working out, etc.) and I’ve pretty much given up on getting hyped for my birthday, but maybe this year won’t be so bad. Last year I had the chance to meet him, and even give him a kiss on the cheek! (See post about concert here: https://mylittletravelingheart.wordpress.com/2014/08/15/236:)
I don’t think this year I’ll be as lucky, but any concert of his is a treat so I’m happy regardless. Today I’m finally getting my ass in gear and finalizing my resume and making a cover letter. Well that’s what I said as I went to my freezer is search of freezies and came out with a Mike’s Hard frozen “mike-arita”. I am now edging on drunk and still dying of heat in my stuffy little duplex. Ugh…. well there’s always tomorrow right? hahaha