Little Life Update: Self Reflection

Hey,

I’ve been doing a ton of self reflection lately and I found this neat list of 50 questions to ask someone if you’d really like to get to know them, so I thought, hey, why not just answer them myself because I’m vain and I’ve had quite a few new followers lately so this can be their chance to get to know me a little bit as well. So without further a due.


1. What’s one thing that’s happened to you that has made you a stronger person?

I’ve had a really rocky relationship with one of my parents since I was a teen and I was put through a lot of really unfortunate situations as a result that were far beyond my years. I think it allowed me to mature quicker, but also realize that just because people are blood,  it doesn’t mean they’re allowed to hurt you.

2. What’s one thing that’s happened to you in your life that made you feel weak?

Honestly, nothing comes to mind. I think the toughest situations I’ve been in have only given me an excuse to better myself, so nothing really comes to mind.

3. Where is one place you feel most like yourself?

My bed, in a baggy t-shirt, with my kitty cuddled up next to me. Which is exactly what’s going on right now haha.

4. Where is your favourite place to escape to?

My home town. Which I think is kind of the opposite of how most people feel. Going home to me is always like a little holiday. I can ignore my phone, I have no where to be, I don’t have to go to school. I can just enjoy time with family and friends and be as off the grid as I’d like.

5. Who do you think has had the largest influence on the person you are today?

This may be a cheap answer, but my whole family has done such an incredible job of influencing me in the best ways. I’ve been so fortunate to grow up with a small army of powerful women. I’ve learnt to value strength and independence over lust and co-dependency and I think that’s so important.

6. If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be?

I would really like to be more independent. It almost feels silly to say because I live alone and I function so much on a daily basis by myself. But I find I rely on the confirmation of others while making decisions and I think having more trust in myself would be a good thing. It’s something I’m working on.

7. If you had one day left to live, what would you do first?

I would write letters to everyone that I love, eat some pho and play with my cat. That would be my whole day.

8. What decade do you feel you most belong in?

One that hasn’t happened yet. I guess if I had to choose, the 80’s. I like their music and films. Young John Cusack, hello.

9. Who are you closest to in your family? Why?

My sister, hands down. I think mainly because we are so similar, but she’s stronger than me in so many ways. She brings out the best parts of me and spending time with her is just like spending time with a real-life version of my subconscious, in the way that I feel no sense of judgement or expectations. I’m just fully my unfiltered self and I think that’s really neat.

10. Who is the one person in the world that knows you best?

Sydney. Arguably she knows me too well hahahah. I have to start so many messages to her with “this is super nasty but…”. She’s my soul mate best friend and I trust her with my life.

11. What is your favourite quality about your best friend?

That she’s wonderfully outspoken. She speaks about what she believes in and doesn’t allow anyone to walk all over her. I really admire her passion and dedication towards the issues that are important to her.

12. When you were younger what did you think you were going to be when you grew up?

A mum.

13. If you could identify with one fictional character (from a book, show, or movie) who would it be?

Tina Belcher, hands down. She’s the perfect mix of confident, awkward and down right strange. And she likes butts and zombies so we’re essentially the same person.

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14. Do you easily accept compliments? Or do you hate compliments?

I enjoy compliments from like a significant other type-of-person because I feel like I depend on affirmation haha. But it makes me really awkward to receive compliments from people I’m not close with.

15. Is your favourite attribute about yourself physical or non-physical?

Non-physical.

16. What is your favourite physical attribute about yourself?

My forearms. They’re covered in the cutest little freckles and I just love it.

17. What is your favourite non-physical attribute about yourself?

I’m very introspective and I think it’s allowed me to be a better friend, family member, girlfriend, etc.

18. Do you believe in love at first sight?

Of course.

19. Do you believe in soul mates?

A little bit less so lately, but ultimately, yes.

20. How seriously do you take horoscopes?

Far too seriously. My ex used to always make fun of me because I believe in magic and mermaids and all that stuff, and one time I read my horoscope on the bus and it said that my plans were going to get cancelled and I was bummed because I had plans to see a flick with two of my friends. So I ended up making it to the movies and we had just gotten our food and I told my friend how my horoscope said my plans would get cancelled so I was happy neither of them called to bail and we laughed, and we sit down in the theatre and I kid you not we just finished getting comfortable and the fire alarms went off in the building and we had to evacuate. So, I take them pretty seriously.

21. Have you ever been in love? How many times?

I think I’ve experienced love-like feelings 3 times. But my memories fade fast sadly, and so after I haven’t been dating someone for a while it’s hard for me to say if it really was love, because I so quickly forget how my feelings towards that person felt.

22. What makes you fall in love with someone?

Their mind. That’s super general, but I think I fall in love with people’s passions, the things they get excited to talk about, the parts of themselves they are the most proud of.

23. What does vulnerability mean to you? What has the ability to make you vulnerable?

I think vulnerability is just being honest. Providing someone with an unfiltered version of yourself. As soon as someone starts talking about their relationship with their parents I get weepy and that’s probably the quickest path to making me vulnerable.

24. What’s one thing you’re scared to ask a man, but really want to?

I don’t really think I’m scared per se, but I would like to ask men in general why the fuck they suck so much. Honestly, I’m horrendously disappointed in the male species. I think I’ve come off as an angry feminist a lot in this post, it’s actually just because my love-life sucks and I’m bitter haha.

25. If you were a man for a day, what would be the first thing you would do?

I’d apologize to my mother, for having grown me inside of her for 10 months, only for me to exit her womb with more rights than her.

26. What do you find most attractive about each sex?

I like men’s shoulders. There’s something about freckled shoulders that make me just want to snuggle up to them and smother them with kisses. I feel like that’s a super odd thing to say, but it’s a bit of a weakness of mine.

I find women’s eyes really intriguing. I think because women tend to wear make up more and can accentuate their eyes as well.

27. What’s one thing you’d love to learn more about?

I’d love to learn more about nutrition. Mainly because I honestly think I’m malnourished. I have such a horrid diet it’s actually awful. I’m a vegetarian but an absolute shit one. Sometimes I think I should start eating meat again but then I remember the only meat I really liked purchasing was beef jerky and hot dogs so then I decide not to. But ya, I’d really like to learn more about nutrition, having a balanced diet, etc.

28. What is something you’ve never done that you’ve always wanted to?

I’ve always wanted to drive a motorcycle.

29. Why haven’t you done it?

Well I don’t have my motorcycle license. But! I think I may get it in the spring! So it’s a work in progress.

30. If money didn’t matter, what would your dream job be?

A midwife. Which is what I’m on my path to now. So we’ll see.

31. If you had off from work today, what would you do?

Well, I only worked til 6pm today and I spent the rest of my evening blogging and watching youtube videos, so probably something similar to that.

32. What was the last thing to make you cry?

It makes me angry that I even have to say this, but it was a boy. I was re-reading past messages I had received from him like a sad melodramatic teen in a rom-com and I had myself a little cry. But then I wiped my tears and told myself that he’s a sociopath and I moved on with my life.

33. What was the last thing to make you laugh?

Oh my god. This thing on twitter.

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34. What is your favourite memory?

I don’t think it’s happened yet.

35. What’s the last thing that really embarrassed you?

Honestly, probably something that happened the last time I was drunk. I can’t tell you exactly what it was, but I know that’s when I tend to embarrass myself. I’m a very touchy, honest drunk and I know I get myself in some predicaments. So probably sometime then.

36. What is your biggest fear?

That I am infertile. I know it seems like a silly thing, but I’ve dreamt of being a mother for so long, it would absolutely crush me.

37. Do you have any regrets? What’s your biggest one?

I have three regrets in my life time.

The first, is that when I was at the Eiffel Tower in Paris, a boy approached me and I swear to you he was a vision sent by the universe straight from my subconscious. He was my dream boy. He smiled at me and I genuinely looked behind me to see if there was anyone there because he was far too put together and handsome to be looking my way. He ended up approaching me and chatting for a while and I never got his name and I’ve regretted it ever since.

Secondly, is that I didn’t allow my mum and her late partner to have more time together. I was an incredibly selfish pre-teen and I think because my dad was quite neglectful I didn’t want my mother’s time to be on other people as well. I know I gave her a hard time over how much time she spent with him, but looking back, I wish I would have encouraged her to enjoy herself more. It’s nothing I can take back, but if I could, I would.

Thirdly, is that I filled myself with so much destructive self-hatred in my teen years, that honestly up until recently had really effected my self-esteem. I was a super confident youngster, but like I said, I greatly depend on the opinion of others and when people in high school made fun of my boobs and things like that, it made me incredibly self-conscious. I just wish I could go back in time and shake myself and say “Katie, you are perfect just the way you are, don’t listen to anyone.”

38. Have you ever broken a law? If you haven’t, what is one law you’d love to break?

I mean, I j-walk every day.

39. What is the craziest thing you’ve ever done?

I went bungee jumping once, that was fun. I also backpacked by myself for 5 weeks in Europe. It’s a fairly safe place to go I think but some people questioned my decision.

40. Would you have a conversation with a stranger?

Ya of course, I literally talk to strangers all the time. (Sorry mum, clearly I didn’t learn the most basic rules from childhood – although the public chatter gene does seem to be hereditary).

41. Would you tell a stranger that have toilet paper hanging from their shoe? Or their dress is tucked into their underwear? (Or anything else that is embarrassing to be seen in public)?

I mean, of course. Just last week I was on the bus and this man’s fly was down and really open, but I think he thought I was checking him out and he gave me a weird look so I just thought to myself “fine, let the jerk walk around with his fly down”. But if he hadn’t given me the low brow, I would have told him to spare him any further embarrassment.

42. What’s your favourite joke?

Oh gosh, I don’t really think I have one.

43. Are you a dog person or a cat person?

If my instagram is any indication, I’m a cat person. I talk about and photograph my cat Posie far, far too much.

44. If you could be any animal, what animal would you be?

A cat I think. Just because you literally spend your whole day napping, you don’t give a shit about anyone and you still have the whole internet going crazy over your kind. It’s sort of magical if you think about it.

45. What’s one show, movie, or book, you’re embarrassed to admit you enjoy?

I really enjoy adult cartoons. My favourites are Rick & Morty, Bob’s Burgers, Bo Jack Horseman, Young Justice and South Park. I usually don’t tell people.

46. How do you think your parents would describe you as a child?

That’s a good question. Selfish-af? Not really problematic? I think generally ok haha.

47. If you could go back to any age or time of your life, what age or time would that be?

I would go back to when I was 14 years old. I would hug my poppa, Doc, and my grandma. Basically just soak up time with all my favourite people who were taken from me too soon. I would tell them all I love them and create more memories with them then I have now.

I would also tell myself to learn to love myself before letting anyone else love me. I think that’s important too.

48. What’s something you believe in that not everyone else does?

Equality. This was just meant to be a sassy answer, but I’m also not really joking, yikes.

49. What’s one thing you would say that makes you unique from other people?

I don’t really know if I’m capable of a unique thought. There isn’t anything about me that is inherently unique.

50. What’s one thing you feel your life is missing?

Family. I have no family in the city I’m living in and I honestly miss it constantly. I also can’t wait to have a family of my own. I yearn for family in many different ways haha.


I hope you enjoyed these 50 questions/answers. I know some of my answers are probably a little bizarre, but I started this post at 8:30pm and it is now 1:50am so my answers have gotten a little bit more obscure the further I dived into the dark hole that is youtube. I watched a lot of Graham Norton clips. I hope you all had a lovely weekend, until next time…

Love always,
Kate

Camera Gear

Hello Folks,

I just wanted to write a quick post on all the camera gear I use. I don’t post much of my photography on my blog, but I do tend to include photographs in travel posts so incase anyone is ever curious what I shoot with.


Cameras

1. Canon EOS 70D

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2. Ricoh KR-5

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3. Polaroid 600 Red Stripe

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4. Fujifilm Instax Mini 8

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Lenses

1. Canon EF 75-300mm f/4-5.6

2. Canon EF 50mm f/1.8

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Love always,
Kate

The Liebster Award

Hello Folks,

While search through statistics on my blog, I had noticed that a few of the views on my account came from a different blog. I decided to check out why people were coming from their blog to mine and I realized they mentioned me in a post! The lovely Lynn from Sweater Giraffe Travels nominated me for the Liebster Award, so I thought I’d continue on the post.

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The rules of the Liebster Award are as follows:
1) Thank the blogger who nominated you and link to their blog.
2) Display the award graphic on your blog.
3) Answer the eleven questions asked by the blogger who nominated you.
4) Nominate five to eleven bloggers and post eleven questions for your nominees.
5)  Publish the full post on your blog.
6) And finally, notify your nominees by posting on their blog.


Lynn’s Questions

1) What’s the best thing you’ve eaten abroad?

Ok, Madie may remember because I feel like I bring up this dish a lot. But we were at this random restaurant in China, I don’t even remember the city. We were at these massive round tables with giant lazy-susans in the middle that had a bunch of different dishes on them. This one dish was tofu cut into little squares, and they were super soft and squishy. They were kind of spicy? And I just remember thinking it was the most amazing thing I’ve ever eaten. I love tofu now (I’m a vegetarian now and I wasn’t at the time), so I feel like it was kind of my introduction to good tofu haha.

2) What’s your go-to for travel inspiration?

I love looking at fellow bloggers for travel inspiration. A few of my favourites on instagram are: @helloemilie, @gypsea_lust, @doyoutravel, @amberfillerup

3) The most interesting person you’ve met while traveling?

When I was traveling alone in Europe, I frequently ate alone. I was at the Elephant House cafe in Edinburg, Scotland eating at this sad large circular table where the wait staff were putting all the lone travellers. The man across from me looked about in his 50’s-60’s and was writing in a book with papers scattered all around him. I was eating soup and avoiding my water that had dirt flakes in it (I assumed they did this on purpose because a lot of Europe does not like serving you water) and writing in my travel journal. The man complimented my journal and the fact that I was documenting my travels in that way. We ended up talking for the rest of the meal. He was a Scottish man, living in Boston, USA and was back for the 20 year reunion of his University in Edinburgh. He was apart of a Scottish folk band in Boston and I kept thinking he looked like Uncle Monty from A Series of Unfortunate Events the movie. I learnt that he was never married and had no children. He ended up offering me dessert and at the end of the meal paid for my entire tab. Oh, and part way through he noticed my aversion to my water and when I told him shyly about the dirt flakes he looked at it and winced, and ordered “two clean waters” the next time the wait staff came. They may have looked down on a 20-year-old girl with messy hair and mismatched clothes, but they respected a posh man with grey hair and I ended up getting the clean water.

Note: Billy Connolly, the actor from Series of Unfortunate Events also moved to Boston and joined a Scottish Folk band, just saying.

4) Your favourite cheesy road trip sing-along song?

I can’t say I really have a specific “cheesy” road trip. My favourite artist to listen to on the road is Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeros. Some favourites of theirs are “40 Day Dream”, “Janglin”, “”Man on Fire”and “Home”. They’re just a fun band to belt out to and let yourself get lost in.

5) When you started blogging, what were your goals?

I don’t think I really had any haha. I just started blogging as a way to get my thoughts out, kind of like an online diary. I didn’t ever think anyone would read it. I just had fun putting it together and writing little posts.

6) How have those goals changed over time?

I’ve definitely written posts that are less about me and maybe things that apply more to others. A lot of my posts are still very (*cough* egotistic *cough*) much about my life, but  I have definitely branched out what I choose to write about. I guess my goals have just changed from being a diary to something people can relate to more.

7) What’s your favourite way to blog? [Videos, written, photojournal, etc.]

I’d say just written. My blog posts are normally equivalent to word vomit haha. When I’m specifically blogging about traveling I like to include photos, as a big part of traveling for me is capturing moments.

8) What’s one time you’ve gone off the beaten path?

While in Switzerland I let myself get lost a lot. Whether it was in my own town or while I was visiting others. I’d just wander through the streets, down back alleys and into the furthest corners of the city. I never really had a plan of where I was going, I’d just start walking and stop when I found something worth stopping for. I think I’ve carried over this perspective into a lot of my future travels, the idea of getting lost.

9) What’s the next place you plan on traveling to?

I think I’d really like to go to India, or maybe back pack a load in South America. Both are pretty big trips in comparison to anything I’ve done before so it would take a lot more preparation, so we’ll see!

10) What’s the first trip you remember taking?

I travelled quite a bit with my parents when I was little. The first trip I actually remember taking was to Mexico with my family when I was about 14 (?) not sure if that is the actual age.

11) Do you have any secret budget travel tips to share with the world?

Literally none at all. The reason I probably don’t travel more is how horrible I am at finances and budgeting haha. In high school all the spare change, birthday money, etc. went to travelling. I went to China and Switzerland while in highschool, which were both pretty expensive trips for a 16-year-old’s income haha. But basically, my motto is just spend all your money on traveling to the point of bankruptcy (probably not the best advice).


Nominated: I don’t know any one who may particularly like to do this, but if you want to do it, post this to your blog and say that I nominated you hah!

Love always,
Kate

Drafts on Drafts (#2)

Hello Folks,

I’ve had a really hard time writing lately. Any time I come to discuss a topic or my feelings I begin and get about half way through a post before I quit writing, click the ‘save’ button and exit my browser. It reminded me of a blog post I wrote just under a year ago where I discussed the fact that I had 18 drafts just lying in some blogosphere waste land. Well, today I currently have 49. In under a year I have some how managed to muster up 31 more drafts. So, in the name of resurrecting lost posts, I’d like to do a ‘drafts on drafts’ 2.0.


Little Life Update: Life Is Messy, 06/03/2017

It’s been a while since I’ve wrote anything and I started feeling guilty about it. I write much better when I’m upset and creating when I’m happy has been proving to be more difficult than I thought.


To, 10/02/2017

Dear Depressed Me,


A Letter To My Little Sister (And Others Leaving High School to Pursue Post Secondary), 03/02/2017

Hello Little Sis,

As you know, I’ve felt an over whelming amount of love towards school since going back to Carleton and entering the Women and Gender Studies program. I know you’re considering post-secondary and a lot of your friends are too


Just Kate, 30/01/2017

Hello Folks,

I’m currently procrastinating studying for a test I have tomorrow so after checking twitter, instagram, snapchat, the works, I landed on my blog. The last hope for my procrastination.


Little Life Update: Self Love, 17/01/2017

Hello Folks,

I wanted to blab a little bit about my what I call “self love”.

I’ve spent my whole life re-evaluating and readjusting how I saw myself. As a child, I remember having no opinion. My hair was long and stringy, my mother often dressed me in fun outfits that I sometimes deemed questionable, but wore regardless, because how I dressed ultimately didn’t matter to me.


What It’s Actually Like Removing A Toxic Person From Your Life, 11/01/2017

Hi Folks,

I spent most of my life believing that you must make compromises with the company that surround your life. That if people treat you badly, don’t respect you, or generally lower the quality of your life that you must put up with their actions and short comings because they are in your life for a reason.


Surviving, Thriving and Everything In-between, 04/12/2016

Hello Folks,

I’ve spent a lot of today thinking about the word sonder. Sonder; n. the realization that each random passerby is living a life as vivid and complex as your own.


A Letter To The People Stuck Between High School and So-Called Adulthood, 26/10/2016

Hello there,

I know that right now is a really tough time. You’ve finished high school, maybe you’re working trying to figure out your next move, maybe you’re in post-secondary and questioning every day if you’ve made the right choice, or maybe you’ve already graduated and feel like you’re floating between school and “real life”. I am here to tell you that it’s going to be ok. I’ll even go on step further and tell you why.


Mindless Living, 02/10/2016

Hello Folks,

Do you ever find you’re living your life in something that almost resembles a trance? Like you’ve gotten so sucked into a routine that you don’t even really know if you’re trying anymore?


Figuring Stuff Out, 07/09/2016

Hello Folks,

I think I’m a very introspective person, perhaps too much so. I’m constantly evaluating my own mental and emotional processes, trying to stumble upon some clue that may lead me to figure out what I’m supposed to be doing here.


Taking Chances, 07/09/2016

Hello Folks,

I read something on the internet the other day that I haven’t been able to get out of my mind. It said:

“1. Make a list of things that make you happy
2. Make a list of the things you do every day
3. Compare the lists
4. Adjust accordingly”

I don’t know why this struck me so much, but I haven’t been able to shake it. From reading my blog, it’s pretty apparent I’m not happy where I am. A lot of days (like today) feel wasted over pent up frustration about my job and going no where.


Knowing When Is Enough, 24/09/2016

Hello Folks,

Today marks one horrid year since I returned to my fast food job. Last April I said my goodbyes and quit for what I thought would be forever.


Anyways, I just find it interesting to look back on the posts I started and never finished. I always wonder why I didn’t continue them. If I got bored, if I was unsatisfied with the way the post was turning out, etc. No matter the reason, it’s always interesting to go back and breathe some life back into old posts.

Love always,
Kate

Little Life Update: Being Someone Who is Sad – Not a Sad Person

Hello Folks,

Sometimes I hate my intro, but I think I’ve grown too accustomed to starting all posts like that so I feel obligated to. It does help me from having to think of a creative way to dive into a post. If I didn’t have it I think all my posts would start with some nonsensical rambling like this. Sigh. Anyways.

I think my years worth of posts have made it quite evident that depression is something I have experienced, in waves, throughout my life time. I’ve never been able to pin-point what brings it on, or when it started and I’ve spent a lot of my adult life trying to come closer to a conclusion.

I know that a staggering amount of women experience depression and suicidal thoughts as a result of the birth control pill, and having started the pill when I was about 15, similarly around the time I started feeling these bouts of depression, I thought that maybe that could have been it. I discontinued the use of my birth control in the summer, and instantly I noticed my mood swings go away. I thought my depression had gone away too, until recently.

Sometimes I think it may be from an overbearing amount of emotional stimulation. I tend to feel everything arguably too deeply. Having recently gone through a break up from my boyfriend of almost 4 years, it was safe to say I was really sad. We lived together, technically still live together, and seeing each other so often can obviously be hard. It’s difficult to be sad about something ending, happy you’re still friends, but confused on what seeing them every day means.

I think my whole life I’ve always analyzed everything, every interaction, every thought, every possible outcome of a situation and obviously this can become very draining. On top of the emotional rollercoaster I consider myself to be on, I think it’s just become too much.

It’s just scary to think because I wanted to blame birth control. I didn’t want to be a sad person, I just wanted to be a person who had sad thoughts because they were on this pill that had those results as a side effect. It’s a little over whelming in itself to come to that conclusion. That something inside of your brain is wired in a way that just makes you feel sad. That makes you want to push the people you love away from you. It’s like turning over in bed at night and wishing so badly the other person would grab you back, even though you were the one to turn over in the first place.

I try to remind myself everything that is going really well. I repeat to myself the things that are making me happy. The changes in my life that I’m amidst of. The things I’m doing right now that will pay off in the future. But it can be so friggen difficult. It’s hard to know if you’re ever doing the right thing, if being in school again is even worth it. What if I fail my classes? What if I’m not smart enough? What if I don’t get into midwifery? I can’t go back to working full-time at a brain-numbing job. I can’t. So I push forward into so much unknown it nearly makes me sick.

I wish I was excited by the unknown. I wish I could jump head first into it and be excited by it’s mystery. But I’m not. I like a solid ground to walk upon, I like to know what to expect next. Being rational isn’t exactly as sexy as being spontaneous, unfortunately.

I’ve tried to shift my perspective. That my bouts of depression aren’t a character flaw, but more so something that I occasionally have to go through. It just sucks because I can feel my self projecting my emotions onto those around me and I always worry that they don’t see it this way. They don’t see it as an opportunity to get closer to me by comforting me, but instead as a nuisance in their life, by being a dark cloud on their otherwise sunny day. I just don’t want to be the sad girl in anyones life. I don’t want to be the sad girl in my own life.

Kate

How I Remain Positive

Hello Folks,

I don’t know what it’s been lately, maybe it’s the news or the weather but everything has felt generally negative. People seem more rude than normal and it doesn’t feel like any one puts in an effort to be nice to strangers anymore.

As you all know, I recently enrolled back at Carleton, and honestly I’ve been loving it. People ask me quite frequently (I think out of courtesy) how I’m liking school again so far and I always say I’m absolutely in love with my program, and I am. My professors are wonderful, the topics are engaging and I generally like my assignments as well.

The only thing I’ve had a problem with at school is other students. I can go a whole day at school without one person even making eye contact with me and I find that so bizarre. I know they say that millennials are always on their phones and connected through cyber space but not the actual space they are existing in, and it’s true. If we aren’t on our phones avoiding eye contact, we’re just looking the other way. It’s so strange how unable to interact with other people we are as a generation.

I’m sure some people reading this are like “thank god we’re like that, I hate when people stare at me”, but maybe there are also people out there like me who miss and value human interaction.

So here is what I do every day (mainly at school) to remain positive:

1) I make eye contact and smile at at least 1 person a day. It’s a small goal, but there’s something about seeing the look in someones eyes when they weren’t expecting anyone to be friendly towards them that day. It sounds sooo cheesy but I promise you it’s weirdly rewarding.

2) I think about how genuinely blessed I am to be in school. Again, so cheesy. After discussing with some fellow McDonald’s coworkers the other day, we decided that nothing makes you get your shit together faster than working full-time at McDonald’s. If you’re ever feeling ungrateful for your education, take a year off, work 6am-2pm shifts, Monday to Friday at McDonald’s and I promise you when you return to school the next year you’ll be begging to go to class.

3) Try to make friends. I have talked to and gotten aquatinted with at least one person in every one of my classes. Honestly, nothing makes a class go by faster than having someone to discuss the topic with and to make small talk with on the breaks. It makes time feel like it’s going by a lot faster and is also a hell of a lot less lonely.

4) I hold doors open for people. Always. If there is anyone behind me I hold it open. I don’t just push it really hard so it stays open for the next person. No. I take the 30 seconds out of my day to hold the door open for the person behind me. And guess what? I also smile at them when I do it.

5) On a similar note, I say thank you to every person who holds a door open for me. Even though most of them don’t look back to see who they’re actually holding a door open for, as soon as I say “thank you” they usually turn around and say “you’re welcome”. Such a simple way to value people’s efforts.

Anyways, I know these sounds so basic and simplistic but it’s astonishing how little effort people put into human interactions now a days. I know I probably sound like your grand mother who also doesn’t trust cell phones and thinks selfies are the most vain thing in human history even though she doesn’t bat and eye at how long it probably look the portraits of the Queen to be painted. Long winded example but you get my point 😉

My point is, sometimes being surrounded by tons of people who are putting off tons of negative energy can be really defeating, but it’s really easy to become that random act of kindness for someone who otherwise may have been having a shitty day, which in turn might may your day a little brighter too.

Love always,
Kate

Little Life Update: Milestones & The Women’s March

Hello Folks,

I just wanted to write a quick little thing. Today I hit 50 followers on my blog! I know this doesn’t seem like a lot and I really don’t focus on things like my following because I truly only write to vent and for nothing more, but I still thought it was pretty neat to think 50 people have been following me along on this journey.

On another note, I’ve been enjoying all the posts, tweets, articles, etc. about the Women’s March’s across the world today. Although there are always the oppressors and the trolls, I think it’s safe to say there are so many more allies. So proud of all the Women (however you identify) and allies who marched today. Here are a few of my favourite signs I’ve seen:

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Shared by @Sarcasticluther on Twitter

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Shared by @iElanaojeda1 on Twitter

I hope you’re all enjoying your Saturday and had the opportunity to participate in a women’s march in your area or the conversation that is happening online world wide. We may be taking baby steps, but at least we’re moving forward.

Love always,
Kate